Last night I procrastinated on packing due to anxiousness. I managed to fill a backpack with sweaters and scarves, but it was not going to be sufficient. Ciro offered to bring me a bigger bag. and so he did. It’s very heavy. Why are clothes so heavy? I bustled around today getting ready and taught […]
Internalized homophobia… is not what I’m dealing with. But I think of that concept on a daily basis because it’s the same thing I have, only not about homosexuality. It’s about having “depression” and “anxiety”. Notice how I put those words in quotes? That’s because I have stigmatized myself. I don’t want those words to […]
By the time Indie Week came around, I was feeling a little better, and things continued to improve as the months went on. Indie Week was a smashing success in my perspective (Check out the Indie Week Blog Series!) and I’m so grateful for the ability to have experienced it in a relatively happy state. […]
I really worked with my head to convince myself I could surpass any lasting emotional damage by using the age old spiritual suggestions of “pray for her”, etc. I can recall a moment after feeling such joy, I thought of her and borrowed my strength from that moment to call good wishes upon her, and […]
When I met Ciro, I was at a point in my life where freedom, happiness, and exuberance were peaking on a daily basis. I had been flying solo for a solid 7 months, and in that time had accomplished a major dream of touring. After travelling for a month in the states, which was magical […]
Life carried on. I focused on other things. I relaxed. With my head turned away from the pain of possibly losing sight of the only vision for my career I had ever known, I was free to enjoy all the other wonderful parts of my life. There were twists and turns of other aspects of […]
It’s been nearly a year since I last blogged. It’s been about 2 years since I last wrote a song…all by myself. “Why?” you may wonder(I have many theories). Every time I sit down to write explanations of my absence: I get lost,I freeze up,I ramble on, I lose my focus. The blog […]
Kendall loves sleeping in Photo by Ciro DiRuocco Sleep. It’s my favourite thing in the world. My favourite sensation and state of being. I know this because for no other state of being have I made such great efforts to make last longer when the time was up. When that alarm goes off at […]
My Response to Being Rejected for FACTOR Funding and a BC Arts Council Mentorship Program She arose out of her own shadow. Lying in bed for a 6-month winter of emotional recovery and arguments with fate, she suddenly became unhappy with how big her bum had gotten. Despite what appeared to be an abandonment […]
Everyone met at our house by 11:30am on Tuesday Morning. Paul, our new bass player, has a van, which he has kindly donated to travelling Betty trips during his stay with us. We hope it is a long stay. We’ve had quite the changeover of bass players in our time. Paul brings more to the […]